Celestial Tales

I have no motivation
I have no inspiration
I don't know why my muse has left but I need them back

I gotta figure something out...

in the meantime...

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I'm not quite sure what to say
I'm not quite sure what to do.
Just felt like writing something.
I need some inspiration.
I need something else.
It's like being stuck in purgatory.

I think, instead, I'll do a blog like I have before...

mirror, games, talk,
Phone, website, mario kart, beer, liquor,
murder mystery dinner, friends, family,
help, love, money, apart, computer, flies, A/C, roomies,
Lexie, gifts, pain, photography, hopeful, blue, mindful, patient, hungry,
tired,
waiting, failure, stars, radiohead,
smash, create,
desire, need, want, enough?, ring, mothers,
dad's day, gas,
work, shower, piece, Blue Moon, 

okay, so maybe the last blog was a bit of an exaggeration, since I can't seem to find anything interesting enough to say nor am I able to take an decent pictures for the sharing.
But I will try out this one, since i still have nothing to say...

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I finally have the internet at my new place, so let the blogging begin once again.
I'm settled into my much smaller place, but the rent is free, so no complaining here! Mainly, I've been having fun with friends, playing the wii, enjoying the outdoors, and of course working.
I just got back from camping with M and my roomies. It was a great time! I won't say much more, other than we discovered where the gummy bears live! haha
Anyways, this blog is boring and pointless, so I will leave you with a silly photo.

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I haven't posted much in a while. Nothing much has been going on. It's the start of the summer and I guess I'm looking forward to somethings. It's going to be great living in my new place, and working to save up some more money.

Anyways, I wanted to share some pictures from a few weeks ago. I spent a day babysitting my favorite little one -- Wally. At a month old, I can already tell he's going to be amazing! I cannot wait to see him again. And of course my friends too!

So try to enjoy...

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so, i guess i felt like my blog needed something more from that last pathetic post about life, blah, blah.
Anyways, here are a few pics from a local show recently, that I wanted to post. try to enjoy, those of you that have not seen them.

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The other day, I drove to the next state over for a job interview. Hopeful that I would end my job search, I went two hours out my way to meet with a man I thought would be interested in hiring me. Of course, like every other interview I've had so far, it did not go well.
Like always, I went through the interview with as much professionalism as I could, and tried to be agreeable, and understandable to everything
Not only did the man have no personality, he asked me to change almost everything about my physical appearance, just so I could work in his cubical.

On the two hour drive home, I basically began to breakdown. A realization hit me. I have no clue what it is I want to do. Of course, many of you out there can sympathize with this, but it was just a strange feeling that overcame me. I do not want a career in the major I chose. I don't even know if I want a "career".

I feel as though I would be perfectly happy working at the restaurant I am currently employed, working at a rafting company this summer, and enjoying another summer with my friends, family, and the sun. I just don't see why at 23, I need to be in such a rush to start my career. I have my whole life to be miserable in some 9-5 job. But, you see, that is the most upsetting part -- I am expecting, and looking forward to the time when I am miserable. I shouldn't feel that way. I  guess I feel like I should be more excited, etc. But whatever, I guess we all have to go through some shit before we get to where we want to be in life.

Guess it's just another regular-old 23 year old realization (which I know all of you older people have already been through).